Umeez-e-Dil
Overview:
“Umeez-e-Dil” follows the journey of Umeez, a quiet and thoughtful young man working an online job, who harbors a deep dream of building a life abroad in Europe. The story explores his inner fears, ambitions, and struggles, as he navigates a world full of opportunities and uncertainties.
This novel is a slow, detailed emotional journey, highlighting the conflict between dreams and reality, the fear of fraud and scams, and the emotional weight of heartbreak. Through Umeez’s story, readers experience the power of hope, courage, and human resilience, even when life takes unexpected turns.
The Silent Dreamer
Umeez was a quiet and thoughtful young man. He preferred to stay in his own world, full of logic and plans, rather than be loud or social. Most of his days were spent in front of his laptop, working on his online job. It wasn’t easy—long hours, complex tasks, and constant deadlines—but it was his way of life. For Umeez, every line of code was a small victory, a tiny step toward building a future he had always dreamed of.
Yet, despite all his accomplishments, a part of him always felt restless. He loved his work, but it wasn’t enough. His heart carried a secret desire, a dream he rarely spoke of, even to himself.
"I wish I could go to Europe… see the world, experience something new… but is it safe? What if I fail?" Umeez thought quietly to himself one night as he sipped his tea and stared at his laptop screen.
He imagined walking on the streets of Europe, watching cafes filled with people working on laptops like him, seeing libraries stacked with books he had only read about online. He imagined technology, innovation, and a life completely different from the quiet routine of his current days. But alongside the excitement came fear—fear of scams, frauds, and risks.
"So many people get cheated online… what if I lose everything I’ve worked for?" he whispered softly to himself, almost afraid to speak the thought aloud.
Even though he was careful and methodical, the thought of trusting strangers or taking big risks made his heart pound. Every plan had to be perfect, every step calculated. He spent hours making lists, analyzing options, checking forums and articles about working abroad. Each night ended with him feeling both hopeful and frustrated.
During the day, his life had a strict rhythm. He woke up early, checked emails from clients, and started coding for hours. Breaks were short, and most evenings were spent planning, learning new skills, and exploring online resources about Europe. Umeez often whispered to himself while reviewing his notes:
"I need to be ready. I need to know every step, every risk. I can’t afford mistakes. But one day… one day, I’ll find the right way."
Sometimes, he would walk alone in the streets near his home, headphones on, listening to soft music. The world moved around him—people chatting, cars passing, birds singing—but he felt isolated in his thoughts. The dream of Europe was always there, like a light in the distance, pulling him forward, yet just out of reach.
Umeez knew that dreams required courage, not just planning. He also knew that his fear was strong, but he refused to let it completely stop him. The dream whispered every time he logged in to work, reminding him that life could be more than just codes and deadlines.
"One day… I have to try. I will not give up, even if it scares me," he murmured, closing his laptop and looking at the night sky. The stars seemed distant and cold, yet they gave him a strange sense of comfort.
That was Umeez’s life—a careful, cautious man, balancing between his dreams and fears, slowly building skills, learning, and waiting for the moment when courage would finally outweigh hesitation.
Dreams and Doubts
Days passed in the same quiet rhythm for Umeez. He woke up early, logged into his online job, and spent hours solving problems, writing code, and meeting deadlines. On the surface, it looked like a normal, successful life. But inside, his mind was never still.
Europe was still there, shining like a distant light in his thoughts. Every day, he imagined walking through streets full of history and modern technology, exploring libraries, tech hubs, and cultural spaces. But every night, fear returned.
"What if it’s a trap? What if I trust the wrong person? What if I lose all my savings?" Umeez whispered to himself one evening, staring at the small lamp on his desk.
He often talked quietly to himself, as if planning aloud.
"Okay, Umeez… maybe I should research more. Maybe I should save more money first. Maybe I should find a trusted source… no mistakes."
His room was small but organized. A laptop, a notebook filled with ideas and calculations, a few books stacked neatly on the shelf, and his coffee mug sitting beside him—these were his companions. Each item reminded him of his routine and his discipline, but also of the dream that felt just out of reach.
Sometimes, he joined online forums to ask questions and read about other people’s experiences moving abroad. Some stories inspired him. Some scared him. One story in particular stayed in his mind: a young man lost all his money to a fake consultant and returned home empty-handed.
"I can’t let this happen to me… I have to be careful, smart, prepared," Umeez thought. He made lists, wrote down steps, compared options, and even calculated probabilities in his notebook.
But despite all this careful planning, there was always a small voice of hope inside him:
"Maybe one day… I’ll get the right chance. Maybe one day… everything will fall into place."
Even his family noticed his seriousness. Once, while chatting on a video call with his younger sibling, his brother said jokingly:
"Umeez, why do you always look so serious? Even the sun is smiling outside, and you’re staring at your laptop!"
Umeez smiled faintly. "I’m planning, that’s all," he replied softly. But inside, he wondered if planning alone was enough to achieve his dream.
Days turned into weeks, and Umeez continued his routine: working online, researching Europe, and calculating risks. Every evening, he paused for a few minutes, closed his eyes, and imagined walking freely in a city far away, with the wind on his face and opportunities all around him. But reality always pulled him back—the fear of fraud, uncertainty, and the thought that maybe he wasn’t ready yet.
"I have to try," he whispered to himself one night, staring at the dark sky from his window. "I have to take the first step… but I need to know everything, plan everything. I can’t make mistakes."
Between Hope and Fear
Weeks passed, but Umeez’s thoughts about Europe never faded. Every day, he worked on his online job, but his mind wandered to streets he had never walked, libraries he had never entered, and cities that existed only in his imagination. His dream seemed so real sometimes, he could almost feel the wind of those distant streets on his face.
Yet, fear always followed.
"I have to be careful… one wrong step and everything could collapse," he whispered as he scrolled through another forum about moving abroad. Stories of fraud and scams haunted him. Some people had lost all their savings, others had been tricked by fake agents. Umeez closed his eyes and imagined the worst-case scenario.
"What if it happens to me? What if I trust the wrong person? What if all my planning fails?"
Despite the fear, he could not stop dreaming. Sometimes, he would talk to himself softly, almost like giving a pep talk:
"Umeez… you’ve worked hard. You’ve planned every detail. You know more than most. You can do this. You just need courage."
His routine became a mixture of work, research, and small exercises to prepare himself. He practiced emails, visa forms, and interviews on paper, imagining every possible question and answer. Each night ended with him staring at the ceiling, heart racing between hope and doubt.
One evening, while making notes about scholarships and programs, he sighed deeply. "Why is it so hard to trust people? Why can’t it be simple?"
Even his online colleagues noticed his seriousness. Once, during a video call, one of them joked:
"Umeez, why do you look so tense every time you check your emails? Relax a little!"
He smiled faintly but replied: "It’s not just emails… it’s planning for the future. I can’t afford mistakes."
Alone in his room later, he opened his notebook and wrote:
"Dreams are not just for thinking… they are for living. I have to take risks. I have to trust someone someday. But I must be careful."
This chapter shows Umeez’s growing tension between hope and fear. He wants to achieve his dream, but he feels the pressure of reality and the constant threat of scams. His internal conflict becomes stronger, preparing the stage for future emotional and romantic developments.
By the end of the chapter, Umeez sits by his desk, pen in hand, staring at the notes he has made for weeks. The dream is still alive, but the fear is looming like a shadow. His last thought that night is:
"One day… maybe soon… I will find the right way."
The week had been long for Umeez. Hours of coding, planning, and research left him exhausted, but he still sat at his desk, reviewing notes about programs and scholarships abroad. His mind was busy, yet restless. Europe was still a dream, and fear still loomed.
One evening, while taking a short break and scrolling through an online forum for study programs, he noticed a new discussion about scholarships for European universities. There was a comment from someone named Anzela. She had written carefully, sharing her own experience and advice for applicants.
Umeez hesitated for a moment. “Should I reply? Or is it better to stay silent?” He finally typed a short message, asking politely for more details about her experience.
Within minutes, there was a reply. Her words were clear, confident, yet gentle:
"Sure, I can share what I know. I’ve been planning to apply for a doctorate abroad. It’s not easy, but careful research helps. Let me know if you want tips."
Umeez read the message slowly. Her tone was calm and encouraging, unlike the impatient or vague replies he often received online. Something about her words felt reassuring.
"Maybe I should trust her… she seems genuine," he thought, feeling a mixture of hope and caution.
Over the next few days, they exchanged messages. Their conversations were mostly about applications, programs, and scholarship opportunities. But Umeez noticed a different quality in her messages—she asked thoughtful questions, gave advice, and seemed genuinely interested in sharing her knowledge.
One evening, he typed:
"Thank you for your help, Anzela. I’ve never found someone so clear and helpful online. It makes the planning feel… less scary."
She replied quickly:
"You’re welcome, Umeez. Dreams are always scary at first. But if you don’t try, you’ll never know what’s possible."
That small exchange made a big impact on him. Her words were not just advice—they were a gentle push, a reminder that courage could exist even in a world full of fear.
Even though Umeez was cautious, he began to look forward to their conversations. Each message, each tip, each encouraging word helped him imagine that one day, maybe, his dream of going abroad could become reality.
At the same time, his fear didn’t completely vanish. Every time he thought of taking the next step, the old worries returned: “What if I get cheated? What if it all fails?” But Anzela’s presence, even online, made those fears slightly lighter, and his determination a little stronger.
By the end of the week, Umeez realized that he had started to trust someone again, slowly, carefully, but genuinely. And even though they had only exchanged messages, her presence had already begun to fill a small space in his mind and heart—a feeling he hadn’t noticed in a long time.
The Struggle Within
Days turned into weeks, and Umeez’s conversations with Anzela became the highlight of his routine. Each message from her brought a small spark of joy, a small sense of hope that made his long working hours seem lighter.
Yet, even as he felt closer to her, the old fears returned stronger than ever.
"I can’t let myself get carried away," he thought one night, staring at the screen. "This is all online. What if it’s not real? What if I trust someone too much and regret it?"
Anzela had been kind, patient, and thoughtful, but Umeez’s cautious nature prevented him from fully opening up. He found himself planning every conversation, overthinking every reply.
During one evening’s chat, he typed slowly:
"I’ve been reading about some programs… but it feels risky. There are so many scams… I don’t know where to start."
Anzela replied quickly:
"I understand, Umeez. It’s not easy. But careful research, double-checking every detail, and trusting your instincts can make it safer. Don’t let fear stop your dream."
Her words were simple, yet powerful. Umeez paused and read the message several times. "She’s right… I can’t let fear win. But still… what if something goes wrong?"
Even while he worked on his online job, his thoughts wandered. Every line of code, every task he completed, reminded him of the dream and the risk. He often muttered to himself:
"One day, I have to take a step. But which step? And when?"
At the same time, he noticed something unexpected—he felt lighter sharing his worries with someone who truly listened. It was a small relief, a comfort he hadn’t felt in years. For the first time, he felt hope mixing with fear, rather than fear ruling over hope completely.
Yet, deep down, he knew that trusting anyone, even someone genuine, was dangerous. He had to prepare for every possibility. The struggle between following his heart and protecting himself became more intense with each passing day.
By the end of the chapter, Umeez sat alone in his room, notebook open, pen in hand. His thoughts were tangled:
"Dreams are worth chasing… but risks are real. I want to trust, but I have to be careful. I have to plan… but when will it be enough?"
He looked at the ceiling, the soft glow of the desk lamp reflecting on his thoughtful face. For now, the struggle continued—a delicate balance between hope, fear, and the courage to move forward.
Umeez sat quietly in his room, the soft glow of the lamp reflecting on his face. His heart felt heavy, yet strangely light at the same time. The engagement with Fatima had been completed—a respectful, careful arrangement. The smiles, the blessings, the promises—they all felt like a different life, one that belonged to someone else.
He thought of Anzela. Her messages, her words, her quiet strength—they were now memories he could not act upon. A soft ache lingered in his chest.
"I wanted to trust my heart… I wanted things to be different," he whispered.
But life had its own rhythm, and sometimes dreams take unexpected forms. Fatima, strong and determined, had her own plans—to go abroad for her doctorate. And in some way, Umeez realized, this could be his chance too. Not the way he had imagined, not the way his heart truly desired—but a chance nonetheless.
He looked at the night sky from his window, imagining the streets of Europe he had always longed for. The dream had not disappeared. It had changed shape, fragile but alive, just like hope itself.
"Maybe one day," he murmured, "I will walk those streets… and maybe, I will still build the life I dreamed of."
He placed his hand on the engagement ring and let out a slow breath. There was pain, yes. Heartbreak, yes. But there was also resilience, courage, and quiet hope. Life had given him a new path—one he had not chosen, yet one he could still navigate.
The lamp flickered softly, and Umeez realized that dreams are never truly gone. Sometimes, they are delayed, reshaped, or guided by unexpected hands. For him, Fatima’s presence might be the key to finally reaching the world he had always imagined.
And with that fragile hope, Umeez closed his eyes, letting the ache and the dreams coexist—heartbroken, yet quietly determined.
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